[	mood	|	>_	]
[	music	|	Lindsay Lohan - Rumors	]

i get so envious of what others have. so easily.
i watched “lindsay lohan’s” video to rumors. i dont really like it, but i kinda do. sad to say that it’s the best song on there.
but it doesnt COUNT. her voic is SO synthesized. it doesnt even sound like her.

all of these people that are the same age as me and yet are so much more successful, prettier, and gawd. im so jealous of i dont know, the attention she gets, and her body and stuff.
thats why i tell people i dont like her.

i dont know if i should get this CD w/ my TOWER gift card. i think not. i bought the britney spears IN THE ZONE CD for driving in the car. but.. hmmm. i dont know what CDs (def CD i think, no DVDs i want) i should get. maybe some hip hop. i like it!! to dance to. not for quaLity. i’ve been listening to Missy Elliott and Black Eyed Peas for dance class.. so i got the CDs for that. and the ciara single.

so funny, when ‘headsprung’ came on at DREAM, i broke out my choreographed dance.
a lil’ hard with the shoes, but hey…

I SAW HOTEL RWANDA

and

OPEN WATER.
the only good part about this was the naked scene. and even that was disappointing.

today i cried.
my mother lost my social security card.
she will not give me the papers i need to get a duplicate.
she’s had the form for a week. she lost it. she will not put her social security number down.

is there someone i can call to make her!?
i cannot work until i get this.
even now, i will have to wait weeks for the card.

LOL.
IMMATURITY.

Scroll Down, If you Want, To see what she said to me

CHRONOLIGICALLY:
Anthropology. How many times must I say this… I don’t know whether to laugh at him, be happy with him, or be scared. It’s an interesting class. I love it.
Japanese….

DEAR KEN,
YOU NEED TO TUTOR ME. THIS CLASS IS SO FRIKKIN HARD.
I haven’t practiced my Japanese in seven months, and the Sensei doesnt believe in writing or reading anything, only speaking.
Plus, EVERY single person is from first semester(and are anime nerds, so random phrases, like ‘bedside table’ wtf….), and the one person that is in the same situation as me USED TO LIVE IN JAPAN.
X_____________________________________X

I will be your slave, and kiss your shoes, and cut my tongue off for you.
(You love me, right? You’ll rescue me from this???)
From,
Me

Now that that’s out….

Yesterday I went to a Fondue Restaurant. MELTING POT. It was so frikkin hard to find; we payed to cook our own meal. But I had a $50 gift certificate there. But we still went over… X_X.

Today I went to GODIVA for paperwork, got offered a job at hollister, and bought that denim skirt i had been eyeing with the parrot on it. (I SWEAR, I have a bird fetish). Then we looked at other places for like pants and shirts for my work, and got starbucks and went places (with chocolate on my hands) to tell them I wasnt gonna work there. It’s so hard to find shoes to fit me. I had to get new shoes, closed toe, closed back, black ones.
I LOVED two pairs. One, the heel was unstable, the other, was a sling back and was comfy, but was a ‘skirt’ shoe, not for pants. The first pair was from Karen Scott and had cool designs of leather and patent intermixed. SO HOTT. Plus, both were only $29.99.
But, I got a pair of LEI flats with a flower on them. The front looks kinda weird, but they’re cute and cheap. they were $40.. I got them for $19.97.

I AM SUCH A GOOD SHOPPER.
And forever 21 underwear. I have Lacy underwear fetish, now that I like my butt!
Then I went to Ruby Tuesdays with my family. My sister and brother fought over a chair, then my brother started crying!! And when he tried to do a lame magic trick, my mom threw a napkin and it went in my eye and hurt.
I lost my social card, so i have to send the app again and wait to work @ godiva.. paperwork….

Now I have to read Cultural Anthropology Chapters… >_<

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[	mood	|	cheerful	]
[	music	|	The Faint - Sex is Personal.	]

I saw OLDBOY and HOUSE OF FLYING DAGGERS
and now, i wrote about them.
I also bought REQUIEM of/for (i can never remember) A DREAM for only 9.99 and HERO. (which i think it called Xi Ying in chinese. that, or Yi Xing)
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[	mood	|	cowhggg	]
[	music	|	Tori Amos - Gold Dust	]

DAMN.
i have to use this syringe to rinse food out of my wisdome teeth holes (as gross as that sounds)
so i dont get infections.
using a 6oz water, 1/2 tsp. concotion.
And i cant use stuff like listerine, so it makes my breath smell kinda funky, theres nothing i can do.

but.. salt breath is better than food breath.

still kinda swollen.

Interview at Godiva @ 2pm.

WHY IS IT THAT GUYS DO THIS?:
My friend thinks you’re hot, can he get you’re number… da da da.

If he thinks I’m hot, he should talk to me. Also, I have a boyfriend. But I’m up for hanging out. Here’s my cell. Just because he works at coldstone, he doesnt get discredited, I applied there. Plus, he’s 19. (used to seem so OLD, but now that I’m 18… well…) and goes to UVA supposedly, so I’m expecting a good party scene.

These funny people boost my ego. Either they only know really really unattractive people or I’m possible a little more attractive than I thought. I’ve been looking at pictures too long, and I dont like my nose or chin. Or fingers. Thats all for now. Oh and my tummy.. but I can cover that up and work on that!!

[	mood	|	pain. i just cleaned my mouth.	]
[	music	|	Interpol - Leif Erikson	]

stolen from hanglikeastar (i investigate those who give me NOs in a community vote). i guess im just interested to see what they DONT have in common w/ me)

1. Titanic (1997)
2. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, The (2003)
3. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (2001)
4. Star Wars: Episode I – The Phantom Menace (1999)
5. Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The (2002)
6. Jurassic Park (1993)
7. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (2002)
8. Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The (2001)
9. Finding Nemo (2003)
10. Independence Day (1996)
11. Spider-Man (2002)
12. Star Wars (1977)
13. Lion King, The (1994)
14. E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial (1982)
15. Matrix Reloaded, The (2003)
16. Shrek 2 (2004)
17. Forrest Gump (1994)
18. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (2004)
19. Sixth Sense, The (1999)
20. Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
21. Star Wars: Episode II – Attack of the Clones (2002)
22. Lost World: Jurassic Park, The (1997)
23. Passion of the Christ, The (2004) >>> I have it.
24. Men in Black (1997)
25. Star Wars: Episode VI – Return of the Jedi (1983)
26. Armageddon (1998)
27. Mission: Impossible II (2000)
28. Home Alone (1990)
29. Star Wars: Episode V – The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
30. Monsters, Inc. (2001)
31. Day After Tomorrow, The (2004) >> I bought it but it was fullscreen, so i can’t watch it.
32. Ghost (1990)
33. Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
34. Spider-Man 2 (2004)
35. Aladdin (1992)
36. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989) >>> raiders of the lost ark??
37. Twister (1996)
38. Toy Story 2 (1999)
39. Troy (2004) >> i heard it sucked. im not paying for that. it’s a ‘wait for DVD movie’
40. Saving Private Ryan (1998) >>> I saw some on TV so half
41. Jaws (1975)
42. Pretty Woman (1990)
43. Bruce Almighty (2003)
44. Matrix, The (1999)
45. Gladiator (2000)
46. Shrek (2001)
47. Mission: Impossible (1996)
48. Pearl Harbor (2001) >>> hate hartnett. i heard it was all about the relationship, not the event. but my grandma has it.. maybe i’ll borrow it. HELL NO. i have a bunch of other BETTER movies to go through.
49. Ocean’s Eleven (2001)
50. Last Samurai, The (2003)
51. Tarzan (1999)
52. Men in Black II (2002)
53. Die Another Day (2002)
54. Dances with Wolves (1990)
55. Matrix Revolutions, The (2003)
56. Cast Away (2000)
57. Mrs. Doubtfire (1993)
58. Mummy Returns, The (2001) >>> I saw the first one. (strangely, i WANT to see this one!!)
59. Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (2003)
60. Mummy, The (1999)
61. Batman (1989)
62. Rain Man (1988)
63. Bodyguard, The (1992)
64. Signs (2002)
65. X2 (2003)
66. Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves (1991)
67. Gone with the Wind (1939) >>> Im such a disgrace. (but i have the poster??)
68. Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
69. Grease (1978)
70. Ice Age (2002)
71. Beauty and the Beast (1991) >>> AND on broadway
72. Godzilla (1998)
73. What Women Want (2000)
74. Fugitive, The (1993) >>> Some in Physics. That doesn’t count for much, does it?
75. True Lies (1994)
76. Die Hard: With a Vengeance (1995) >>> BUT I HAVE IT ON DVD
77. Notting Hill (1999)
78. Jurassic Park III (2001)
79. There’s Something About Mary (1998)
80. Planet of the Apes (2001) >>> ppl said it sucked
81. Flintstones, The (1994) >> which one???
82. Toy Story (1995)
83. Minority Report (2002)
84. Bug’s Life, A (1998)
85. Exorcist, The (1973) >>> i’m still a disgrace
86. My Big Fat Greek Wedding (2002)
87. Basic Instinct (1992) >> another one..
88. World Is Not Enough, The (1999)
89. GoldenEye (1995)
90. Back to the Future (1985)
91. Se7en (1995)
92. Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)
93. Hannibal (2001)
94. Deep Impact (1998)
95. Dinosaur (2000)
96. Pocahontas (1995)
97. Tomorrow Never Dies (1997)
98. Top Gun (1986) >> some of it, I have it.
99. How the Grinch Stole Christmas (2000)
100. Catch Me If You Can (2002)

can you beat me? (probably… but you have to figure in the HALVES and percentages and the fact that i own some. thats worth something…)

Applied to:
Coach
Godiva
(forgot to apply to Sephora)

Rejected:
Hecht’s (No openings in cosmetics… WILLFUL rejection)
What kind of company ONLY schedules M & W ?! (coincidentally the only days i can’t work?)

Accepted:
Coldstone (but only 6.50??)
Dry Ice

Pending:
M-A-C
(the person that interviewed me @ Dry Ice is actually reccommending me there now)

PLUS all others

BEST TASTE TODAY: PUMPKIN SCONE
dentisty appt to see if i’m healing right. i get a weird taste in my mouth.

OH YEAH OMFG.
i went to westfield today!!
(saw sensei and mrs.rapp; got hit on “hello? are you a senior? >turns around< DAMN you're a visitor?! >keeps walking<; transcript)

GUILTY PLEASURE:: http://www.mamastonevintage.com photo gallery

so i woke up at 730. (went to bed at 5. worst night of sleep ever)

then i woke up again at 11.
i got a haircut.
>>LAST I checked, it was $35, but it was reall $42!?! I only had $66 in my account.
>_<

i dont have my camera, but my hair is short and w/ bangs. MAKES MY FACE LOOK FAT.

then i went a job applying.
my application at border’s didnt work. it broke 4 times.
then i went to pick up my school books. (no books for ART or PSY 202, so i only needed my SOC 212 (but THREE books?!) and my Japanese ones, which i must drive an hour for.)
then i went and applied, in this order:

Express
H&M
M-A-C
Hecht’s Cosmetics
Coldstone (I was just applying anywheres)
Dry Ice
Forever 21
Gap

I did not apply yet to any restaurants or Barnes & Noble or Starbucks.
BUT I already have an interview tomorrow for cosmetics @ Hecht’s. depends on what the hourly is. commision based, no?
i wanna work @ Shiseido, Estee Lauder, or Clinique (I was too scared to apply @ sephora)
JOBS in order of what i want:
M-A-C
H&M // Express (a tie)
Hecht’s Cosmetics
Dry Ice//Forever 21 (a tie)
Gap
Coldstone

ok. TECHNICALLY i am so qualified for MAC cause i went to Barbizon for a year. (aherm.. like 3 yrs ago?) but still!? they’re so mean there.

these are things i think about: will i use the stuff that i get discounts on there (like at gap?? no) MAC === YES!!, uncomfortable shoes. hecht’s … is it worth it? Express maybe not, MAC== YES!! (HM theres none)

I’m not going to finish my app to Borders.
I just hope that if i get accepted to say.. Hecht’s… and then I later get accepted to MAC (which will prollynot happen) then what?! I WILL SO FRIKKIN DROP HECHT’S LIKE ITS HOTT. and shimmy over down the way to MAC.
i didnt apply to hollister or AF cause thats just crazy. i dont buy enough stuff there.

i like my hair wet.

but i was SO FRIKKIN SCARILY ACCOSTED by this old creepy guy @ the mall. he wanted me to be his assistant driver, then he asked me to dinner. how old did he think i was? he just INTERUPPTED me programming my phone to ask me where i was from then commented on my feet.

OMG SO FRIKKIN SCARY. i thought he was going to stalk me. i actually sweated when i was talking to him.

[and you know.... GUYS are the best eyebrow waxers. mine kick so much butt right now. THE BEST.]

i have mad skills. i just go up to the CLOSED post office, pout (with my huge box of parcels) and i get the door open!! YAY ME!!

[	mood	|	anxious	]
[	music	|	Portishead - Numb	]

ok, so i have to get a job. not because i really need the money. okay. i need the money. but not for anything like .. for myself.

i have to pay for stuff like my hair cuts now, so i have to get money (where as before, i didnt have to do that)
but i dont know where i can work!?
last year i applied to old navy, starland and target, and worked at best buy and carrabbas as a hostess. my choices for (bleh) jobs are limited, because i am still going to school. BUT my schedule is quite liberal. (so i cant get an office job, i have to get something in retail)
BUT i am also 18 now, so that opens up a whole new field of job opps.

i would work at
Express in manassas only (not fair oaks)
H&M manassas.. or dulles i guess (dulles is a little bit far, and traffic though)
for h/m and express though, portions of my money would go to buying clothes to wear there. what about HOLLISTER?! i dont like the ppl there…
Borders or Barnes and Noble
other places like thisnot victoria’s secret or limited or BR, i think im too young for that. basically, i’ll just GO to the mall and walk into places.

As a Last Resort, these places
Waitress i only dont want to do this because of training i have to do and ALSO i have night classes, but i would work at catbo i guess. some place where i dont have to pay for a uniform please (no carabbas!!)
Starbucks seems easy enough. i’d work at the centreville one or the one at 29.

i think i think i THINK my parents are going to charge me rent. I’m no longer allowed to use the phone (i use my cell phone, which i pay for), or the TV (thus not allowed to watch the DVDs danny left for me while he’s gone), i have to pay for all of my clothes (fortunately, my birthday and christmas just happened) and stuff like food and medicine and hair cuts, school, and books, dance recital costume!!, and car.

so i have like $80 in my checking account, i need money!! but im still puffed up from my wisdom teeth so i dont want to go on job interviews.

but i can work on
mondays and wednesdays before 11 AM (yeah right) or after 8 PM (class all over the place in alexandria and manassas)
tuesday, friday, sunday all day
thursdayanytime before 6 PM
saturdayanytime before 1 PM or after 3 PM (i have dance 1:30-2:30 PM)

and i cant babysit anymore because my school schedule changed. plus, its been TWO weeks and i havent been paid. plus i want a job for the summer, and not have to be scrambling at the end of semester. babysitting is last minute, though it pays good and no taxes. i cant work for my mom, she’s too mean to me, and even if i do work, if she gets mad at me, she just holds my check and says “you didnt get paid for that”
so, around christmas, i got paid only like 60% of my work.

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