jammin to the UPS

I know there’s a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen
In my living room late last night,
It was almost too bright to see
And i know that it’s not a party if it happens every night
Pretending there’s glamour and candelabra
When you’re drinking by candlelight

What does it take, how long must i wait?
— “This Place Is A Prison”

I was waiting for a cross-town train in the london underground
When it struck me that I’ve been waiting since birth to find
A love that would look and sound like a movie so I changed
My plans and rented a camera and a van and then I called you
“I need you to pretend that we are in love again” and you agreed to

I want so badly to believe that “there is truth, that love is real”
And I want life in every word to the extent that it’s absurd
I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
The marker snapped and I yelled “quiet on the set”
And then called “action!”
And I kissed you in a style that clark gable would have admired
(I thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that “there is truth, that love is real”
And I want life in every word to the extent that it’s absurd
I know you’re wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?
— “Clark Gable”

hmm… seems that the more i listen to modest mouse, the more i like them. also, i found out that my track listing is messed up. i have a song on here that was only supposed to be on the Float On Single, and am missing two songs, and have two songs combined onto one track. Horn Intro and World at Large are on the same track, and I’m missing “Dig Your Grave” (instead, having “I’ve got it all”), and am missing “Interlude (Milo)”. looks like i’ll have to go buy the Cd. All this time, i’ve been liking songs and thinking that their titles were different than they really are. bleh..

oh well.

just hold on while i fix all the other ones

today we went to dim sum in 7 corners. i am full. dead from ANGP (update later). got stuff to make a skirt people. finishing the kitchen. i want to swim.

remind me about the battlefield, ariel’s recital and IHOP

so today was graduation. even though i woke up at like 6:30, took a shower, and did my makeup, i was stiiiill behind schedule when dan came to pick me up~ sorry~
but yeah, i was all worried that they would outlaw me from the procession because my skirt was showing through my gown. i busted out some safety pins and inadvertently made a sundial on dan’s arm rest thingy.
we were all late for the “8:45″ deadline, and still waited like an hr in a hot stuffy hallway (with jessica’s very heavy, nonbreathable skirt) i walked up and down the line to find my spot, and it was right next to where i started. -_-”.

anyways, so graduation yeah. graduation rehersal on thursday was supposed to be all cool, except i was paired up with David, and chris, behind us was waving a streamer and yelled “can we spell akward”. just imagine me lowering my head and shaking it…

< < stepford wife outfit

back to graduation.
so, i calculated that if one person was absent for graduation, that me and david would be paired up. and we were, and stood really far apart. then, it was all over, and i was sitting next to chris and this other loser. they were all telling the valid victorian to shut up, and i was thinking "if YOU were valid victorian you would want to get your 15 minutes, so shove it". of course, i just shusshed them a couple times.
i like how people tried to start blowing balloons *right* after they got their diplomas. or beach balls rather.
when i was going up to the stage, i was all nervous, like on a roller coaster, and i didnt hear anyone's name after mine, and i didnt even remember if i was supposed to go down the stairs, and didnt want to look like i got lost on stage. they had to search for my diploma, so i was up there for a few seconds. gasp...
(i like how at grad rehersal, i wrote people like 5 checks for things that werent mine, and they havent paid me back yet...)
then, from there on, i waited for people i knew, then wanted it to be over really quick because i was hungry.
(i called my grandparents the night before, and was like... uh.. btw, are you coming tomorrow" "when?" 10-12 "in the afternoon" yes. our graduation ends at midnight "hahahaha. no. really. in the afternoon?")
so, we left (akward pairing with david again, and i felt like saying congratulations, but i didnt. i mean, i did it to...) and upon exiting the building, it felt like we were movie stars. people lined on all sides of the gate things, thrusting stuff at us, flashes going off. or was that just me.
then, i found dan, after not seeing anyone i wanted to talk to.. and wondering if i was going to have to wait till everyone left to find my parents to get a ride home...
i called my parents and told them i was leaving. then i got home before them, let dan caroooose through the dvd collection (in awe... O_O) and then they came home~. then grandma and grandpa came home >cue $500 check< bling bling, and there were hugs and then we went out to eat @ macaroni grill. then i came home, took my makeup off and took a nap.

today i went to school to drop off ANGP junks, and to give my counselor his present and to clean out my locker. there was SO much stuff, i got a bruise on my arm, and had to enlist the help of my friend to help me take it to the car. then i went shopping with my mom for graduation outfit stuffs. i went to um.. the picture place to get prom pictures, and we got them all free and stuff. $150 of stuff free. heart heart ^_^.

then to limited, to get this skirt < < which was on the $10 rack, but was really $80. and i still got it.

my mom said she would never sacrifice our shoes and clothes and food for a big house.

oh yeah, and now im getting the same thing as my mom. the preminitions, that come true. its been happening for little things, and i thought someone was going to have their baby at a certain time, and they did, yesterday.

oh yeah, and dan says : cause we called each other at the same time.

i like how the people want me to work 2 weeks early (from july 6th, now, to june 21st). good money though. $8.50 per hour, no taxes.
who calls @ 9:47pm? they do.

i hadnt remembered what freedom was like! summer! i love it. love love love it.

“dont want to lose you to that thing in which you were lost. but you like it. you dont like having an identity. if thats what you want, i’ll help you steal it. you dont need her, i can be her. i can be anything you want me to be, i dont care, AS LONG AS YOU still WANT ME.”